Right now I'm feeling....Weird. For instance, I miss her, but at the same time I'm just kind of numb. Like I almost WANT to miss her but my emotions won't let me, so it's a definite conflict of interests. I've never felt like this really. I was with two girls before my ex girlfriend who both committed suicide within three years of each other, so my emotions were already tore to shreds before this happened.
I just kind of think my emotions are gone. I can feel the fact that I want to feel something, I want to cry or shout or be upset...I just can't. I took a few sleeping pills last night at about 4:30 am and woke up at 9:30 am...So not only are my emotions fucked, my body is rejecting everything. I'm not hungry, I can't drink anything, I don't want to do anything. I can't say if I want her back or not. I'm not sure myself. She hurt me really bad with what she did last night, and she never gave me a reason why she left. I think it might be for another guy, but she kept telling me it's not. Although she probably wouldn't tell me either way so I don't know. Sorry if this isn't the kind of stuff you guys wanted to see on my blog, I just need to vent somewhere. I have no one else to talk to. I'm thinking of setting up something with a therapist.
Has anyone had any success in the past from talking to a therapist about relationship troubles? Or do they just tell you to find another "fish in the sea" blah blah?